just finsished this chinese book which clara (nus clara) recommended to me. i really like the book. but at the same time it too sort of freaked me out. seeing too much of my characters in it... haha... it freaked me out to the extent that i stopped reading last night.. but can't resist the urge and continued this morning. thanks for the recommendation clara!! but i don't think i'll meet up with your that friend. but don't mind can ask him where did he buy this book if he did.. cause there are parts which i really like. there are parts of it which gave me hope, some which put me down,.. some which i felt that its too good to be true..how can a guy wait for the gal for a whole 10 years!!! at this moment, its a little too much for me to accept.

these few days it seems as though i've been missing something in my life, but life still goes on..there are moments here and there that i just sat down and stoned. memories flashed back of many things that happened in the past. i miss... especially today.. sigh...

these 2 days been going swimming in the morning. yest went with clara, today with kailng, monday with both of them i think. didn't really expect i can open myself to a friend so quickly. cause acc to the other 4 pple, i am like an ice mountain, takes a long time to crack... but think they did a good job in melting most of the ice liao.. glad to hear from kaiwen that i seemed to have a bit more self=confidence these days... haha. don't know why.. but think there are times whereby even the childish ones have to learn the ways and grow up.. i don't totally say that i'm an adlt, but i feel more at ease with myself... it really took me some time to actually grasp what i really want or what i really like and do in my life, what i really think and who i relly am.. i'm not near the total enlightment at all, but i am glad that at least steps are taked towards it at the moment.. thanks to someone....
just got home from the kaiwen's hall bash at rouge. ok la. not bad for my 2nd bash experience. the first was horrendous!! this tiem round think i am more used to people, more adapted to that idea, thus i actually quite enjoymyself at times, too bad think we wasted quite some beer.. came back home rather red... but told my parents that no la, didn';t drink, just tat the suntan today while swimming. don;t think they accept it though.well at least now i'm back, before 1 plus so they didn;t really flare off that much. right now, i'm testing water see whats the limit i can go.....miss ya